jag minns allt som vackert och färggrant, jag minns hur vi brukade le, men löven föll ner, elementen slogs på, himlen blev färglös, oföränderligt grå

finland looked something like this through my phone. six out of seven days were completely grey, but that one day - a tuesday - was sunny sunny sunny.

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i packed my fjällräven with a schoolbook and my camera, an extra lense, and makeup etc. the hatbox i filled with clothes.


on friday morning we were in finland. an edwin-i-want-a-photo-of-us-picture.





we got to the apartment before my mum did. i was happy to see she's started painting again.


in the afternoon we met juho for a fika at café Art. he seemed to be doing well but i think i gave the picture of be doing even better.

there she was, the woman of my dreams, not only beautiful, she was finnish.

hej hej we will take off to finland tonight! ååååh happiness!

the city had defeated her.just like they said it would.like some overcrowded party no one had noticed her arrival and no one would notice if she left.

i was quite ill again and so saturday evening i spent with sour candy and amélie. in the middle of the night i woke up with the dvd still on, root menu and yann tiersens music, shut it off and crawled to my bed.

today is a birthday they're smoking cigars he's got a chain of flowers

i had my birthday party, the theme was monochrome, we mainly danced and drank our drinks with straws and adored the discoball and yes two chairs broke but we had a great time!

things i like number 17: egopictures.

sometimes i spend time taking pictures of myself. you know that typical through-the-mirror-technique. i guess that's what happens when it's you who's always the one with a camera and no one requires to get to take pictures of you at the same time as you crave for such, åh! ach, these dilemmas of life. however, egopics from lately:

power out in december. i happened to feel very pretty that time, no light to prove it buhu.





because my hair was ridiculously soft that day.


almost like after a wash-and-blowdry at a hairdresser. hooray!

locks are like longing; an everchanging thing and keys are just clouds made of metal and spark

lately:

i had a semla-afternoon with edwin. i was halfway through mine when he finished.

read the nicest of books. even at a bar. for hours. surrounded by tens of friends. started crying too.


eaten eggs. i cook mine for 12 minutes at least.


gotten birthdaypresents and bought heels that i cannot walk in.


had a birthdayfika with some of my favourites and that deserves nothing less but a dorky collage!

twentytwo

this is how i started my year as a 21-year old.
but today i turned twentytwo. so i decided to make a list of some of the things i did for the first time as a 21 year old, as to show myself that i did accomplish things. got a few new experiences, learnt a bit more etc. have more anecdotes to tell kids and coworkers.
so when i was twentyone i did these things for the first time:

knew already after a few hours after meeting a person that we'd become great friends.


wore a long dress


wore black lenses. or lenses in general.


bought a furniture.


saw the cherry blossoms at kungsträdgården.


went to a weekday party.


went to a droneconcert 30meters under groundlevel.


saw efterklang live.


took edwin to finland.


went to pluto.


"rolled" my own cigarettes.


ate breakfast on my balcony.


ate artichoke.


went to edwin's summercottage.


went to longholmen.


slept under a table.


went to berlin.


used a single-use-grill.


had a picnic with my mother on her backyard.


died my hair much lighter. and curled it.


took pictures at the same time as i was biking.


babysitted a baby, had an actual scone-sundaybrunch, wore a duffel, saw the oscars from the beginning to the end.