wannabe

i bought a new pair of shoes from urban outfitters some weeks ago. i fell in love with them but haven't decided yet if they're nicely emma-bunton-back-in-the-90s-ish or just whitetrashy. ah well, either way is fine by me.

a place that's holding its breath, hoping time won't stumble upon it

today's just been rainingrainingraining


so i entertain myself by listening to this, eating my favourite sweets and wearing my favourite lipstick.
and i'm longing for days like these with him:

your heart is like a great river after a long spell of rain, spilling over its banks

some photos from my phone.

jokin aika sitten kun puissa tuskin oli lehtiä, palloja kuitenkin.


i started drawing elephants after i saw never let me go (which i fell in love with and which left my heart broken)




i miss this terribly now when i'm here in finland.


so i try to occupy myself with walks over rivers (obs vanishing point!)


having fikas with finnish friends such as nea with the prettiest hair



and by buying for example pins like these. 2,95e at h&m, hooray!

p.s. I'm almost done with Kafka on the Shore. Book recommendations?

såhär/regna bort / är det det här det hela handlar om/tänker inte säga mer

the past five days have been like this:

i listen mainly to this


fill my head and the screen with this


hang out in all purple because it makes me happy


in the evenings escape like this


try to increase my vocabulary in swedish.

goals for this week are to finish the film exam on time and to learn to wink.

i'll come running with a heart on fire

i have escaped to finland for awhile. i don't know if i like it, much because last week stockholm showed its best sides by being like this:

this was the day when we walked those 20km. few things go as well together with the cherryblossomtrees as old men.


somebody had hung shoes here. (and all i could think of was a certain song by scandinavian music group)


we found a second hand store between these sunshades. i wanted to steal one of them since they already had two anyways.


we also stopped by at Lisa Larssons. they played Billie Holiday.


i wanted to meet a new friend and start our friendship at Cafe String right there at the spot where the whole window is open åh how lovely.


few things are as happifying as chocolatiers and candy stores in general. bakeries as well.


i have this silly weakness for old men. i guess Freud would have lots to say about that.


FINALLY saker&ting had open! the owner thought i was "lovely and funny" because of the several patterns i was wearing. "vad tjusig du är, vad rolig du är!"


suddenly we were back at kungsträdgården. i want somebody to play this giant-chess with me there.


in the evening i went here. i still want everything from there. materia is nice. i bought a pair of expensive shoes.


because Juliette Sarkasm told me they looked nice. even though i myself can't anymore tell if they're whitetrashy or just summery Emma Buntonish.

and all the while i had this song stuck in my head.

when everything is lonely i can be my own best friend, i get a coffee and the paper; have my own conversations with the sidewalk and the pigeons and my window reflection

yesterday i walked 20km. Today i've already done the laundry (which always leaves my apartment looking chaotic, something i secretly adore) and discovered old clothes i've never worn.

i can't feel my hand anymore, it's alright, sleep still

for the moment one of my favourite things is the way home from the store that is second closest to me, nicely the best store to shop at if we're going from edwin to my place.

(i still find it astonishing how green it got all in a sudden)






and i stole a piece of that wild wine so i can grow it on my balcony. hähä.

from her to eternity

in the evening we went to some odd sorta secret party where half of the people looked like this:


so unnerving! and therefore quite cool mhm.

tänään puisto humisi ensimmäistä kertaa, maa suli ja virtasi kyyneleinä kiven koloista kaulalle

yesterday was perfect (perfect temperature, perfect wind, perfect sunshine greenness birds trees leaves calmness). on those days you must have a flower in your hair!




and have a picnic. and take a nap in the park.